My Junior Year
You guys have probably been wondering where my blog posts have been and where I have been. Well, I've been dealing with the end of the school year, finals and moving out of my apartment. This school year has gone by so fast, even though at times I thought it couldn't go any slower. With all it's ups and downs, it was still overall a great year but still very different from my first two years of college spent in Arizona. Not being in Greek life I feel a lot less busy, which can be a good and bad thing. Since my junior year of college has come to an end and I am now a senior in college (which is absolutely insane to me, where has the time gone?) I figured it's fitting to write a post reflecting on my junior year of college. I hope that you guys enjoy this post and are having a great day and if you're on summer break, I hope your summer is off to a great start as well. Anyways, let's get to it.
As many of you may know, I decided to transfer home after spending two years at the University of Arizona. Now by home I just mean back to my home state, my college town is about two hours from where my parents live and I ended up getting an apartment right off campus. This was my first time really living on my own. My freshman year I lived in the dorms and my sophomore year I lived in my sorority house. This was the first year I was actually even able to cook my own meals so that was really different for me. I ended up getting a random roommate because after high school I really didn't stay in touch with a lot of my old friends and was fine with getting a random roommate. Also since I moved home my parents agreed to finally get me a car, since I would now need one to drive home and drive to get groceries. Having a car is so nice so that's definitely a plus to moving back home.
As the school year started I began to make friends in my major, since there were only 70 people in my cohort we all got pretty close. And by all of us I mean the 8 of us that always sat together (I'm actually living with two of those girls next year, if your reading this hey guys). Anyways, classes were great and I was super happy with my major and just how small my classes were compared to my classes in Arizona. During this time (fall term), I was happy but still really struggling. I was depressed because of the change, although this was a change that I made on my own, it was hard to be apart from my friends that I grew very close with during my time in Arizona. I missed the sunshine and I felt really lonely. The only plus side is that I was able to drive home whenever I wanted to since home was only two hours away. As the weeks went by it slowly got easier. I started to get used to my life back here and accepted the changes that had taken place in my life. During the winter it was the worst. I really hate the rain so it really doesn't make sense that I moved back home. I got into a routine of going to class and just going straight home. I wasn't involved in any clubs or organizations like I was in Arizona so I felt really disconnected from society, even though I was doing it to myself. One thing that I have noticed overall this year is my grades. I put a lot more effort into my classes and have finished this year without receiving anything below a B, which is quite the improvement compared to my grades in Arizona.
As winter term came I dreaded my time at school, I had a class from 5-7 on monday nights and it was awful. It was cold and rainy out and all I even really wanted to do was sleep. At this time my anxiety medication started to become less effective and I really was just stressed all the time. Starting this term I was still trying to take it easy since I had just had my nose job over winter break. As this term went by I started to be a lot happier, hanging out with my friends more and just being more social.
Between winter term and spring term I went on spring break to Arizona. I never wrote about it because it was just not something I wanted to acknowledge at the time. My spring break really sucked. When I flew down to visit I was still super close with one of my friends in Arizona, like we would talk everyday and unfortunately after my trip we weren't really friends anymore. It sucked because we used to tell each other everything and I really felt like I lost my best friend. During my time there we got in a huge fight and even though about a month after we ended up talking again, I knew things would never really be the same again. We still talk, but it's just small talk and we definitely aren't as close as we were before. It sucks to be honest, I'm still mad because they never apologized for their end of things and I'm mad because I lost one of my best friends. I think losing that person really helped me move on though, from my life in Arizona. I still keep in touch with a few good friends but I don't plan on going back to visit because things just aren't the same. I'll definitely visit my friends in their home towns in the future but going there for vacation just isn't the same as when I was living there. I can't really expect it to be though, things change over time and so do people.
Next we have spring term, this was probably my favorite term of the year. It was beautiful outside, I turned 21, and did really great in my classes! My life has definitely taken a turn from the lifestyle I used to live in Arizona, but this year I've done a lot of growing up. I have my priorities straight, I go to class, I like my classes and actually put in effort. My social life is definitely not as busy and crazy, I party way less but it's actually something I'm okay with for now. I've needed this time to do some self reflection and figure out what I want and who I am and now that I have I am so optimistic about the future.
So you guys may be wondering what's next for me? Well I leave for Brazil at the end of this month. I'm going to be gone for all of July but then I'll be back in August. I cannot wait to finish my senior year of college and move out of the state again for graduate school. I want to go to school somewhere where I can start a life for myself. I'm so excited to explore the world and live my life.