Spring Break. Traveling. Boys. Getting Married.
Hello babes, so I'm currently stuck in some late night thoughts, you know the ones. They're the ones that keep you up at night. But I've got stuff to do tomorrow so I'm putting my thoughts on here instead. So I took my last final this morning and now I am officially on spring break! I drove home today and the weather was amazing so I wanted to spend some time outside. My parents live on 10 acres of land so decided to drive the four wheeler around in our forest and just around the nearby properties and it was so nice. It was a great way to just clear my head and relax now that I'm finally on spring break. I have a few errands to run these next few days but then on Monday I'm off to Arizona for about a week to hang out with some friends! I'm currently binge watching House of Cards, I'm on season 3. Am I the only girl who thinks that Kevin Spacey is a FOX? Yeah? No? If not then more for me.
I have some super exciting plans for next term and summer and I just want them all to be official! Next term for school I'm taking 18 credits.... yeah. That's a lot. I'm taking on courses to start my special education minor and I'm starting my hours towards my volunteer work with special needs kids and I'm beyond excited. If you know anything about me then you know that I love kids so much, they're so innocent and adorable they always put a smile on my face. This summer I'm going to have the most amazing time ever because I'm going to Brazil! I will be there for a month and it's going to be a great experience, my mom's entire family lives there. I've been there about four times before but now I'm older I think it will be a different experience than before. In addition to this trip I was also accepted into a study abroad program that goes to Dublin, London/ Oxford, and Paris. Amazing right? It's three weeks of reading, embracing the culture and consuming some amazing food and wine. Anyways, my plans for study abroad aren't official but I'm hoping that everything works out. I have such a passion for wanting to know the world I'm living in and find it crazy that I have seen so little of it. Mark my words, I will see it all one day.
So blog update, I've been meaning to film a haul on a bunch of stuff I ordered online like clothing and makeup but it didn't all come in time and now I'm on spring break. BUT, I'm keeping tabs of all my new stuff and will film when I'm back to my college apartment and hopefully the rest of the stuff I ordered will be there by then! I have been using some of the makeup but when I haul it I'll be able to give you guys a review of how I'm liking the products! Also I may or may not vlog my spring break in Arizona, maybe.
So if you stuck around and got to this part of my blog I'm going to talk about something that I've been wanting to talk about for a while now. Boys. Am I seeing someone? What's going on in my life and all that fun stuff. So I in no way NEED a boyfriend, I think that when the time comes I'm going to meet a really amazing person who will change my life forever (or have I already?). As I grow up and understand life more and more I also understand love better. I know that before you love someone else you have to love yourself and I know that love is this really incredible feeling and thing that you get to share with someone. I think love and being IN love are very different and I know this might be weird but I'm so excited to be in love with someone one day and share my life with them, build a life and family together and create memories and experiences with them. I'm more than confident that this will all happen for me some day, but I'm also in no rush to make all that happen right away because there I know there's a time and place for everything. So back to what's actually happening in my life right now and not my fantasies. I have been seeing someone, but it's casual. We have fun together but I don't think we really click when talking about life. Either way it's not really headed anywhere. You guys might think I'm crazy for writing about him, but honestly I don't think he's ever even read my blog. I like being happy and feeling cared for, not that he isn't a good guy because he is*. I just find myself thinking about other things around him. Obviously if I don't want it to be more serious I'm not asking for all the love and romance, but I like being around kind, giving and loving people. Maybe the whole casual thing just isn't for me anymore? Maybe I just have such a different mind set after growing so much over these past six months that I'm not the same person I used to be anymore. Either way, we all know I'm too stubborn to ever settle for anything less than what I want and know I deserve. So yeah, I'm single and need to meet new guys, but whenever that happens it'll happen. I'm in no rush.
Hope you enjoyed some of my updates and late night thoughts.
Until next time,
*If you read this earlier you know that I wrote about that guy being disrespectful, and just to clarify that's not true. If I was being disrespected I wouldn't be in that situation. I felt bad about what I said because it wasn't true and I have to remember that when I write about other people I can't always just say what I want and should consider the feelings of others. If someone did something awful and I wrote about it that would be different but I made it out to be something it's not. So if you're reading this, I'm really sorry and you may not be mad at me but I'm mad at me and it won't happen again.